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NO. i'm not having affairs with any of the trainers. not yet. haha wth? 

went out with them ramai ramai for lunch has become an issue for the club. lagi wth? 

they said, i'm the reason why, they are lack of focus, commitment and discipline. 

WHAT THE HELL?

just went out to eat at bukit subang and hanta baju dobi. gila ape.

they helped me a lot by giving me all the riding skills and taught me with the horses stuff.

pasang saddle, grooming, mandi kuda, faham kuda and etc

so, why not i bawak dorg keluar pergi makan since the club usually served them with ikan polo bodoh tuh for lunch. once in a while, kena lah jugak makan ayam ke udang ke sotong ke ape ke. dorang bukan duduk dalam sangkar. aish

yesterday, terry was talking to me and lisa. he asked us to choose which trainer we want. i was like laughing.and dah agak this kind of question akan di tanya jugak akhirnya. 

told him, i don't want any of this guys. not for the moment.

i'm too heartbroken to be with guys right now. huhu

and suddenly, he was like putting his arm around us and said,

" izyan and lisa, my little girls, you two are very nice kids. very young and have a bright future.you studying your degree now and you, lisa, is a foreigner. there's no use to have a relationship with any of the horseman. they're stupid. they can't even speak english. they have no future. they are NOTHING. zero."

and it really pissed me off. not because i'm backing them up or something.

it just that, for GODSAKE terry. they are HUMAN BEING. 

who said, they have no future. if its not because of them, your club won't exist.

the horse trainer is like a 'heart' of the club. people wont come if the trainer sucks.like seriously. 

nak harap kan engkau, riding pun hancur. rising trot sampai saddle tebukak. tejatuh tegolek kau. hahha

these people are really good in riding. they shared their skills. most of them, come from different background.

some of them, are from the army, some of them are really a well-known person in endurance, and even the Nepal there was a Sargent in a police academy back in his country.

you don't even know your own staff terry. ohh c'mon. i know them better.

sape penah masuk jail, sape amik drugs, sape gila, sape pervert, weyh, orang yang keje dlm stable kau semua dlm tangan aku. kau yang bodoh.

i know, what kind of people i've been mixing around. yeah, i don't mind cause they really make me happy. they treated me differently. i don't care they are taking drugs or something. cause at least dorang tak pernah ajak aku buat keje gila tuh. every single day, i learn something new. not about horses. about life. BAL, nepal tuh, ajar aku psl life banyak sangat. umur anak dia sama dengan aku. eddy ajar aku how to move on. sil ajar aku pasal kuda. pik and mi, always make me laugh. non-stop. rony, suka nyanyi lagu pelik2 kt aku. haha. im having a blast mixing with them. so, why do you guys care?i know how to take care of myself.

and then, after that, 

told him, i have  my right here to say something behalf of me, lisa and the rest

me : uncle, need to say few words. i don't want to be blame. it's not my fault. i have my rights here. you can't only listen to one side of the story about me and lisa

terry : no no no dear. you don't have any rights here. when u come to this club, you follow the club's rules. 

WHAT THE FUCK?

i don't have a right to say anything after what those people said about me and lisa?

BULLSHIT! fuck you terry

AND he also said, you can't have any relationship with any of the trainer cause the trainer is HAK MILIK SEMUA. semua kena share. heh? like really terry?

c'mon! they have their life? you don't own them terry. for godsake. what happened to you when you were a kid? something bad? traumatic event.what made you to be like this?

spoiled heartless big old man.HAHA

tah laa. i had enough with all these dramas. cukup laa i just lost someone that really mean to me. and right now, this stupid thing doesn't make sense at all.

got another 2lesson more. will find some other place to ride. we shall see.

maybe pindah elmina.

and since, eddy pik and abang mi, are quitting this end of the month and they are moving to putrajaya, i can once in a while ride there for free.

plus, abang fuzaimi and abang zuki also still working at the army base camp. still can ride there too. yeay.

conclusion: NO, horse trainer are not STUPID. they have a life. they have future. people who said they are stupid are the one who are STUPID. do you get me? HAHA.

and and, jangan cepat melatah kalau ade orang fitnah kita. sebab, dye akan kena lagi teruk. and kalau betul bukan salah kita. buat ape nak takut. 

rezeki ade di mana mana laa. tak mati pun tak ride kt situ.

one day, you will learn terry. that you don't OWN people. 

aku tawu kau kaya raya, project sime darby banyak, tapi kalau ALLAH nk tarek harta kau yg berjuta tuh sekelip mate jek. huhu. 

kaya sangat pun susah. so, guys, learn this.