screwed.

yeah, i screwed everything this semester. i just checked my midterm result. it was like , " ohh god, is this real? is it that bad? is this really happening?" oke maybe it looks like i memperbesar kan isu niyh. but the things is, i'm not satisfied with my studies this semester. i just took four subject including Islamic Studies. still, i cannot cope with everything. yah, maybe because of my outdoor thingy. too often. but, its the only way for me to fillup my time without thinking too much about him. i don't want to be like last semester. cried every single day for something stupid. for wanting more. things that i won't get; which at the end, everything messed up. i try to do something for myself. its not that i don't need you anymore or something, its just i need my own blardy time. please. i'm not forcing you to understand but i'm begging you now.
 and yes, i think i need to slow down with my riding and everything. relax je dulu. final is near. a month to be exact. what i need now, is a timetable or something. struggle for final paper, and make sure i won't fail any of the subject. if not, i;ll kill myself. uurrrggghhh. too stress.

 OMGod, he is so freakingly adorable. and he looks like a dog. like seriously. i named him 'PRINCE'

hahhaha. gila.