kebencian dia=)

thanks for being so honest.
now i know why he hated me so much.
and im still wondering is his love are meant for me.

1.i benci bile u cakap bende bukan bukan
2.i benci bile u cakap u tak layak
3.i benci bile u nak change,u buat tnpe persetujuan i
4.i benci u bile ego u bertambah
5.i benci bile u mengharap lebih
6.i benci u fikir i tak nak dengan u
7.i benci bile u benci perangai buruk i,padahl benda tu u pun ade
8.i benci u rendah kan i
9.i benci kalau u tak hormat i
10.i benci bile u buat i rase besalah
11.i benci u tega sangat
12.i benci bile u cakap i tak sayang u, infact i sayang u gile
13.i benci u macam xsedar i nie siapa

there a few more.
these are meant for me.yah/they are all accepted my dearie.

i know there are so many mistakes that i've done and i think that there's no forgiveness for that.
i'm not worth it.
u cannot bear with me.
you cannot stand me.
what for you are trying and learning for a zero result.
and i think i'm not in ur dream list pun.
sorry to say that.
ur love maybe for someone else that will appreciate you more than i do.
i know who i am
and only me can hurt myself
no one can hurt me without my permission'
the past had taught me well
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yes
i managed to learn by mistakes
i manage to overcome my unwanted feelings.
thats the reason why my ego-ness has become more and more.
i don't blame myself
i blamed the past.haha
i'm mean.
after half a year u still cannot soften my bloody cold heart
i know it is hard.
huihh~
i hate myself for being in love with you.
i hate me.
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seriously
all the stupid damn fucking question about you and me are all lingering everywhere.
everything about anything are all lies.
thanks for your lovely what-so-ever
i will try to change like what you desire.
if you still not happy
alright fine.
just throw me to an island full with naked hot guys.haha
kidding.jk jk!!
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if you still not happy with who i am,
just gather all your strength and confidence
clear ur mind and soul to
"LET me GO"